Updated: Jul 25, 2018
11 Weeks Out
Week one completed! Whilst regular training, meal prep and being on the run is a usual part of my day and week, I feel a little more pressure on myself now that I have set a goal to get on stage in October.
"Personally, change scares me. What if I fail? What if I'm not good enough? What if I actually succeed? I haven't worked out which is more terrifying."
I have been trying to rack my brain as to why I am feeling this way and it's really a simple explanation.... I feel out of my comfort zone. We are creatures of habit and it's easy to get into a routine (whether it be benefiting our health or not). As soon as we make changes to our routines or habits we feel uncomfortable, anxious, fearful! But of what? Usually when we set goals and make changes it is with the intention of change for the better so it should be easy right? No that's not the case at all.
Personally, change scares me. What if I fail? What if I'm not good enough? What if I actually succeed? I haven't worked out which is more terrifying.
For the most part, week one was a success with a few minor issues to overcome.... Whist my organisation skills are usually on point, I found myself sitting in my car in the shopping center car-park with my container of oats and protein ready for meal 3. Absolutely starving, I shuffle through my bag.... NO SPOON!!! The thought of drinking my oats was not overly appealing so the next best thing, a lid from a smaller container. Not ideal the best option I could find. I now have 3 spoons in my lunch bag, just in case.
While a specific meal plan and training program is tailored to the individual, it is encouraged to allow 1 meal a week to enjoy without guilt or regret, also known as 'cheat night'.
For me, this involved dinner with a group of friends at the Meatball Bar Saturday night which was pure bliss. To enjoy a delicious meal without having to measure, count or heat in the microwave and eat out of a container on the run.....
Usually you don't realize how much of a social aspect drinking is until you're the one not drinking! Of the whole week, this is what I found the most difficult. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not usually a drinker! But when all your friends are enjoying a bottle of wine over dinner and you're the only one sober, it really take a lot of will power not to join in and say 'It's ok, I'll start again Monday'.
Don't start again Monday, start NOW!!!
I am looking forward to what this week has to offer. Week 2, here we go....
'Kicking my disorder one rep at a time'